I hate You, I Love You

Feeling used,
But I'm still missing you,
And I can't see the end of this.
Just wanna feel your kiss against my lips,
And now all this time is passing by,
But I still can't seem to tell you why,
It hurts me every time I see you,
Realize how much I need you.

I miss you when I can't sleep,
Or right after coffee,
Or right when I can't eat,
I miss you in my front seat,
Still got sand in my sweaters,
From nights we don't remember,
Do you miss me like I miss you?
Fucked around and got attached to you,
Friends can break your heart too,
And I'm always tired,
but never of you.
If I pulled a you on you,
you wouldn't like that,
I put this reel out,
but you wouldn't bite that.
I type a text,
but then I never mind that.
I got these feelings,
but you never mind that.
keep it on the low,
You're still in love with me but your friends don't know,
If you wanted me,
you would just say.
And if I were you,
I would never let me go.
I don't mean no harm,
I just miss you on my arm,
Wedding bells were just alarms,
Caution tape around my heart,
You ever wonder what we could have been?
You said you wouldn't and you did,
Lie to me, lie with me, get your fix.
Now all my drinks and all my feelings are all mixed,
Always missing people that I shouldn't be missing,
Sometimes you gotta burn some bridges just to create some distance,
I know that,
I control my thoughts and I should stop reminiscing,
But I learned from my dad that it's good to have feelings,
When love and trust are gone,
I guess this is moving on,
Everyone I do right does me wrong,
So every lonely night I sing this song.

I hate you, I love you,
I hate that I love you
Don't want to but I can't put nobody else above you
I hate you, I love you,
I hate that I want you
You want her,
you need her
And I'll never be her

All alone,
I watch you watch her
Like she's the only girl you've ever seen
You don't care you never did
You don't give a damn about me
Yeah all alone,
I watch you watch her
She is the only thing you ever see
How is it you never notice
That you are slowly killing me.

#gnash